Monday, October 17, 2005 Coming Around

Today we discussed Chamchan at length. We talked about the possibly of mental illness. We’ve decided that it is a remote chance at best. Also we talked to Holt today. Chamchan is ours if we want her! The other family backed out due to the mental illness issue. 

Lo is coming around and is almost 100% on board but is still terrified just like I am. 

Sunday, October 16, 2005 A Week of Praying and Thinking

Cham’s medical history indicates her mother is schizophrenic. This is an issue with us. We are learning about this and if it is genetic or not. So far it is not. Even if it is, I believe God can change the DNA of His creation and bring a little girl home to us healthy and sound. Lo is VERY nervous about this journey. Sometimes she thinks she will lose her life inside the demands of motherhood. I understand this but also I know she will find fulfillment in it as well. Her heart cries out whenever the subject of orphan children comes up and I cannot help but believe that when Cham comes home, her heart will connect with her just like the orphans we love in Myanmar. 

Thursday, October 13, 2005 It Happens!

Yesterday, photos of Chamchan showed up! Funny how I prayed to hasten her arrival and sure enough, the photos show up. We were not supposed to know anything about getting a child for months, but God moves quickly when His children cry out. I am convinced He brought her at this time because of my prayers. We are not done with the home study yet and they are talking about a referral already! This is great news. There are two families in the running for this little girl and we are one of them. The other family is in Norway I believe. We are going to take a few days and pray that this is the right thing for our family. It’s a big step for this DINK family!

Wednesday, October 12, 2005 Putting it in the Hands of God

Yesterday, I prayed for my daughter to come home quickly. For her protection, for God to hold her in His arms until she could be in mine. My heart was torn with despair because she was not in my home. I want to hold her and kiss her. I am counting the days until God brings her home to us.

Monday, October 10, 2005 The Journey Really Begins Today

Today, this morning, I wept. God called me near and for the first time in many months, my heart broke. God has not spoken to me yet, but I am listening.

The heart of my baby girl cried out to me today. I wept for her there in Thailand. Knowing she was alone, without protection. I became inconsolable. I pray, God hasten her arrival!